(originally published by OldAuditor on December 1, 2009)
The overarching memory of my early years in Scientology was the incredible number of wins that occurred on course and in auditing. These were originated after classes, in the halls, and in the local coffee shops.
People just kept on cogniting and the enthusiasm was contagious. If you heard a win from the HQS course and you hadn’t done it, you wanted to sign up for it. It was just that simple. When you heard wins from those who had attested to Clear, the entire room would go bright as we all went exterior at the same time.
It was a time when those who weren’t winning stood out like burnt out bulbs in a lighting display.
It was a total surprise when I went to Advanced Orgs and saw an abundance of serious people and very few shining ones.
Now I won’t say we were all paragons of virtue in the early days, but we were winning and ethics seemed to be as standard then as the auditing. The purpose seemed to be to make students and PC win in life and that was achieved on a daily basis.
When I ran a Mission, that was my purpose too and we succeeded at it for many years. I used the “Ideal Org” policy letter as my guide and had posted it near the front door where all could see it. My staff and worked hard to make the mission a place where one would know immediately that this was a place where one could go free.
By the mid-nineties my observations indicated that the attention of church management was more on enforcement and duress than on providing services and wins to public.
I distinctly remember a Sea Org type visiting the Mission one afternoon and upbraiding me for the lack of bustle and body routing. He seemed to ignore the students quietly studying in the course room and the TRs drills going on in the back room. I was preparing to take someone in session and merely pointed to the Ideal Org Policy letter on the wall.
He argued was that we should not be delivering services, but should be routing public to orgs for training and processing. He seemed to have no idea of an ideal Mission Scene and felt that we lacked the face-ripping ambiance of some upper orgs. He wanted to see “hustle” and could not recognize the value represented by winning students and PCs.
It was evident to me that this earnest young SO member had never experienced the kind of case gain that our public experienced every week.
There are other signs that technical delivery has slipped, even at the highest orgs. I caught a few seconds of some OT 8 wins on video and these OT8s were reading prepared scripts in a carefully conservative tone level. If a spontaneously delivered success story delivered in exhilaration is no longer acceptable, the CofS is in a very bad way.
You can still tell when students and PCs are winning. Their eyes are shining and you can’t begin to stifle them. They are bubbling over with joy.
Maybe that’s why independent scientology is growing steadily despite all obstacles. Wins are still being delivered out here.
Way to go!